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| Children of Desire September 30, 1979 Text by Francis X. Clines Photographs by Mary Ellen Mark 200J-003-17A Jeanette Alejandro and Victor Orellanes shortly before the birth of their daughter, Chastity, about a year ago. Jeanette was 15 at the time. Victor was 14. Just as everywhere else, there are loving hordes in the Fort Greene slum of Brooklyn who strike back at life with their own fecundity. Individuals find each other and reproduce and mark their existence with a new human. New to the hard life on Adelphi Street in Fort Greene is a baby named Chastity. She is a year old, born out of wedlock to Jeanette Alejandro and Victor Orellanes, two youngsters of sweet dark beauty. They became couple after they first met three summers ago, when Jeanette was 13 and Victor was 12. They combined in a twist of innocence and passion that the young mother says she will always hold dear. The pregnancy began after a year of such cleaving on the far side of childhood, and never was Victor so tender again, Jeanette says, as when they awaited Chastity together. Now that the love is easing and Jeanette is 16, she has been forced to move with Chastity from Victor's parents' home, where there was discord, and go back to her own mother five flights up from Adelphi Street. This girl does not talk in terms of being unmarried and does not regret how passing love can be, but Jeanette says it would have been good to finish the eighth grade and try high school. 200J-125-020 Jeanette gazes at Myrtle Avenue from her Brooklyn apartment. If only from her physical experience, Jeanette feels entitled to speak with wisdom. She tells her younger sister, Rosa, who is 15 and big-bellied herself now with child, not to drink all that sugary Pepsi while she watches television. Rosa smiles somewhere between maternity and her own childhood, distracted by Lonnie, a tall, handsomely burnished young teen-ager who impregnated Rosa and who nuzzles her tenderly as the soap opera drones on during his visit. The erotic sight of Lonnie and Rosa, touching and smiling, staring slowly at each other is remarkably similar to the tender weeks of a year or so ago when Jeanette and Victor lolled together, curled on the ripest edge of fruitfulness. "Oh, was I pregnant," Jeanette says. "I was disgusting big. My stomach couldn't stretch no more." All the children are by the television set - Chastity, Jeanette, Rosa, Lonnie and the unborn. The glass screen with the moving picture seems far away from them. The soap-opera characters and their problems seem too imbued with causation to be plausible in the apartment on Adelphi Street. The girls' mother, Ada is down on the stoop, watching the street scene as if it were television. She has no complaints. She enjoys baby Chastity. She says Rosa's addition will be no burden, and hopes it will be a boy. "Baseball player," says the smiling 36-year-old grandmother, who looks strong and slim and cynical as a jockey. These days both Jeanette and Rosa are telling their younger sister, Annette, who looks old for her 11 years, to beware of the fact that there is more to boys than their looks and the dreamy moments of meeting. "I tell her," Jeanette says in the firm new voice she has developed for baby Chastity. "The other night I heard some guy on the phone with her. I warn her. I warn her good." Whatever the missed advice about the blinding speed of reproduction, the three Alejandro sisters seem close. Jeanette's secret pregnancy was first spotted by her little sisters. Jeanette found a note on her dresser: "We know what's up with you, From Your Friendly Neighborhood Spies." The note is sheer girlhood, a bit of tattle about a valentine, with no intimations about the raging biology of this : life. 200J-217-34A Jeanette (right) mugging in her room with kid sisters Annette (left) and Rosa. 200J-012-08A Jeanette adopted a dog during her eighth month, then gave it away after birth. 200J-119-17A The sidelined mother-to-be watches Victor dancing with her sister Annette. Jeanette is beautiful. Her dark eyes are very honest in answering questions about what it's like to be an eighth-grader who misses three menstrual periods. "My friend explained how it goes and how I could go to the clinic at Cumberland Hospital. I wasn't scared," she says. "I wasn't worried at all. I just thought: 'I hope the baby will be O.K. and I won't be too fat. Chastity is O.K., she says, although slow in walking because of a turn in her foot. Jeanette exercises the foot the way the doctor at the clinic showed her. As complacent as Jeanette is with her situation, she agrees that something remarkable is happening in her social circle. All the girls she knows from J.H.S. 294 and the Fort Greene park on South Elliot Street have become pregnant lately, symptoms of what professionals are calling the No. 1 population-control problem of the nation (see box on page 48). "All my friends," she says, and slowly recalls each of those now with child. "There's Miriam, and Wanda, Rosa -this is another Rosa - and Elizabeth -she's only 13- and Lori, the one on Clermont. I knew kids who were pregnant in the sixth and seventh grade, too. "I guess everybody wants a baby," Jeanette says as Chastity whimpers for something in her mother's hand. "I don't know why.' Jeanette looks at Chastity, so freshly demanding. "Probably to fill in their life. They feel so bored. They got nothing to do with this life." She instantly denies this was the case for her. "My life isn't empty," Jeanette says. "This was an accident, that's all." She stares at the curly-haired accident, baby Chastity, who plucks endlessly at the mother. The baby is voracious in investigating the life of the apartment to fill in her own existence. For a strange moment in the apartment, as Jeanette smiles so satisfied and Chastity gurgles and reaches and Lonnie senses his satisfaction in Rosa's belly, reproduction seems spontaneous, as easily hatched in the romance of light rays from the television set as in fleshly intercourse. 200J-157-30A During early labor at Cumberland Hospital, Victor is a tense but sympathetic presence at Jeanette’s bedside, lending her what comfort he can. Later she and the baby moved in with Victor's family. Soon, Jeanette says, Victor is moving away to another neighborhood, a better area, because of his father's job. "I don't mind. We had our love. There are others." Her eyes are clear and steady. Childhood is ending. 200J-242-31A The baby became a constant element in Jeanette’s life. Above, when Chastity was only a few weeks old, she carries her daughter home after an evening at a party in the neighborhood. The merest mention of the notion of planning gets the first negative tone from Jeanette on her current life. "Victor and I planned - I moved in with his family -and look what it got me," she declares with a bitter nod. "Victor got out of hand, started acting tough and not respecting his father." Jeanette does not talk of men in general terms, and she dismisses with a disbelieving smile the idea that in different ways there can be a male edge in life, and she has felt its sharpness. But each male she mentions- Victor, his father, her own absent father - sounds mercurial in her descriptions, willful, unpredictable, unavoidable. She remembers very well how kind Victor's father could be, taking them all into Manhattan on the subway for a grand time at the Puerto Rican Day parade. That was last year when Victor's affection seemed to grow with the pregnancy, when he had a busboy job after school and put aside money for her, when his father was high-spirited. "His father hit the numbers five days in a row, won something like a thousand dollars," she says. "It was good." 200J-258-07A Trying to accustom himself to his new paternal role Victor takes on the feeding of his daughter. 200J-227-15A At a neighborhood sweet-sixteen party which Victor attended with Jeanette he cavorts on the dance floor with another celebrant. But then after she and the baby moved into the father's house, she saw the older man in his own self-controlled world, "locked up in his own room, just like always, fair when he wanted to be." She remembers how Victor began challenging the older man in little ways, finally pricking the father one day into stating his sovereignty in terms of Jeanette. "Victor's father shouted, 'She is not my business. I want her out of my house! " It can only be a suspicion, but that moment is recalled so crisply, with her dark eyes set afar, as if looking directly back to it, that the forced retreat from her new family to the old life of Adelphi Street may be for Jeanette a bigger event than any other, bigger than the yielding to Victor, bigger than the creation of Chastity. And she talks of it tightly, as the inevitable result of "planning." "When you have all planned something," she explains, "then it can blow up in your face and spoil the whole thing. I don't want to plan. If something good happens, it happens." By Jeanette's account, the next great step toward independence in her life will come in two years when she is 18 and the welfare bureaucracy breaks her and Chastity out of her mother's welfare check and opens a new account, for a new generation. "I want to get out on my own," she says. "I want to see what it's like to live alone. The separate check will help. They give you enough, and if I don't like it, I can move back in here. " 200J-339-016 Pregnant now herself, Rosa sits with her boyfriend, Lonnie, at her baby shower. 200J-334-13A Jeanette and year-old Chastity provide company for each other nowadays. Somewhere out beyond the apartment on Adelphi Street there undoubtedly is a disapproving, unimpoverished chorus waiting to condemn Jeanette for the implications of her comments on public treasury and private morality. But if you linger awhile, there is morality aplenty to be heard in the girl's observations about the present and the future. For one thing, she emphasizes that her mother takes her welfare "the right way," with no man in the apartment unofficially, to siphon or fatten the welfare check. There is honor in this, the daughter says, and practical wisdom in going manless. "This way, she can't get into trouble." And there is morality to be had from the church, according to the latest resolutions of this young mother. "I'm going to get Chastity to go to mass on Sundays and talk to the father for religious instruction," Jeanette promises. "Soon as she is bigger. I only went on special occasions: Mother's Day, Easter. I want Chastity to do the communion. I never did." Jeanette says she is religious enough to believe in the sanctity of life, to never have considered abortion when Victor impregnated her. She remembers a Father Murphy at Sacred Heart church down Adelphi Street where she used to go to fetch holy water for her mother. He always asked whether he would be seeing her at mass. That could be the difference for Chastity, Jeanette says now. |
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